“I thought I was going to avoid it,” Cardi told W magazine. “When I gave birth, the doctor told me about postpartum, and I was like, ‘Well, I’m doing good right now, I don’t think that’s going to happen.’ But out of nowhere, the world was heavy on my shoulders.” The depression kept her from breastfeeding Kulture—”It was too hard,” she said—despite her doing so in the “Money” music video.
“People don’t really talk about what you go through after pregnancy,” She added. “Like, they don’t tell you that you get stitches down there or that your first two weeks you’re constipated. Or that you get contractions because of breastfeeding. I wasn’t expecting that. When Kulture was born, I felt like I was a kid again; everything was making me cry, and I needed a lot of love. I be feeling like, ‘Do babies know who’s they mom?’ I feel like babies love whoever is giving them the milk, and I want to give the milk the whole time. I want her to know me,” she said. “I feel better now, but sometimes I just feel so vulnerable, like I’m not ready for the world yet. It’s weird.”