This idea is echoed in “I Can Do It With A Broken Heart,” where Taylor confesses: “I’m so obsessed with him, but he avoids me like the plague.”
And the star does not hold back in sharing her heartache, with it arguably evident that Taylor was left absolutely devastated by Matty’s actions. She tries to make sense of the whole thing in “The Black Dog,” where she asks: “Do you hate me? Was it hazing for a cruel fraternity?”
In “The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived,” she adds: “Were you sent by someone who wanted me dead? Did you sleep with a gun underneath our bed? Were you writing a book? Were you a sleeper cell spy? In fifty years, will all this be declassified, and you’ll confess why you did it?”
And in “Down Bad,” she repeats: “Now I’m down bad, crying at the gym / Everything comes out teenage petulance: ‘Fuck it if I can’t have him, I might just die it would make no difference,’” she sings. “Fuck it, if I can’t have us, I might just not get up.”
Taylor’s heartbreak is arguably at its most exposed in “loml,” where she acknowledges: “You’re the loss of my life.”